Bliss

Warning: warm and fuzzy post coming up!

World, I am the happiest I have been in my entire life. It's due to a combination of several things, all of which revolve around my daughter, who is due in 16 short weeks!

Tonight, it hit me hard...in Target of all places...just how happy I really am. I was just wandering around with a fountain soda (yes, I still drink a Coke a few times a week) and aimlessly browsing the home aisles, storage, and the baby aisles and I literally got teary eyed. It is so strange, but I was just so happy in that moment and really allowed myself to revel in it. Revel in the fact that I have a wonderful family, amazing friends, a great job, a loving husband, and a daughter who likes to move around and kick at all hours of the day and remind me that she is there and she is thriving. (On a side note, as per usual, I walked out spending $100 on who knows what.)

Also, my happiness can be attributed to a re-prioritizing in my life. I am focused on the positive and all the little stuff that used to get to me, suddenly doesn't have a place. If I start getting stressed, it's easy to focus my attention on the more important things happening right now and realize that the other things are not worth my energy. It's wonderful to stop my churning mind and say "wait, does this really matter? Is it really worth upsetting yourself over?" It rarely is.

I laugh louder, hug longer, and love stronger now than I ever have, and I hope this is something that I can maintain for a long, long time.